“Be still and know that I am/You are God”
And (willing) surrender is not a dirty word.
A brand New Moon – in Scorpio – arrives at my front/back door on the 25th October 2022 just after I finish my evening meal. For me personally I like Scorpio Moon at whatever phase – my own Moon resides in Scorpio so I guess there is a certain familiarity – and yes as I say this my mother’s words ring loud in my ears – “Familiarity – (she would counsel) – breeds contempt”. Yes the Scorpionic ‘nature’ is feared, revered but I like the depth and I like to plumb the depths – it’s not new territory for me.
This New Moon is all about ‘plumbing of the depths’- i.e. a willingness to dive into the causes of particular ways of being that may have caught us and kept us from conscious development
The theme of Betrayal has reappeared – not too surprising as this is a psychological aspect/component relating to Moon and emotions. Many Astro pundits will proffer Saturn as the wielder of the sword of betrayal but given the nature of the Scorpion – betrayal can certainly be felt as an eighth House and Lunar happening. Things are never cut and dried, Black and White and so the nebulousness and obfuscation that is present in the 12th House can also feel like a betrayal.
As these feelings (of betrayal) surface inside my own life there is always the tendency to find cause – and ‘Old Habits – the saying goes – Die Hard”. So of course I want to find something in my life to blame. There are no shortages of ‘things’ and if we are to include Saturn as partially responsible for the Betrayal theme the global situation of disparity between the ‘Haves’ and the ‘Have nots’ is an easy target. Given that those who are in positions of ‘authority’ is also a Saturnian theme. But I like to look closer to home: I have in the past used people within my own living situation as targets for blame. This is a very easy and soft target. But I currently don’t have this luxury – there is no one close enough to elicit the finger pointing blame game as response. And yet the feelings remain and it is and has always been my want to find out root cause: so I dive.
The North Node is still in Taurus whilst the South Node is in Scorpio. The link here is Self care. I know whenever there arises within me the temptation to Blame – external forces/dynamics – people, for these feeling of Betrayal, I never have to look too far for root cause. And although not entirely responsible for the feelings there is always a hefty amount of cause to be found in my own lack of Self Care.
It is not only the ‘basics’: good food, good hydration and a good nights sleep it can be much more than this and of course when dealing with anything Scorpionic – it will also be less obvious, less visible.
It is a bitter pill when we see our potential and remain in the dicrepency. We get shown/given a gift of seeing/feeling what we could/can be(come) and fall short of the mark. This is mostly apparent in my life with a propensity for being seduced – did I hear consumed, possessed by desire – knowing the dangers and still going there – as Springsteen the poet would suggest “But Mama that’s where the fun is”. There is always a price – growth and evolution stymied? And along with this the South Node tendency to go where I know I shouldn’t there is also that part that wants to label such action as punitive or corrective (because it is ‘wrong’) rather than see the potential remedy as offered in moving consciously toward the (unknown – not unknowable) North Node. During our formative years ‘Care’ that should have been provided from an external source – i.e. loving parents – might be either lacking or missing. Now though I am an adult and the North Node is inviting me to become my own source convenor for Self Care. As mentioned it’s not only my body that requires my support – even though Taurus is a body Gurus – if I want to know the root cause of my emotionally charged feelings of Betrayal – I need to sit still – to consider, to ponder And surrender. If I want to go into the fuure of my potential the North Node offer – I have to sit and surrender. It’s the Heart of the Child that is being summoned – It’s OK to say I don’t know anything. In fact this is the prerequisite – Sit still and find my God and know my God – is me can only be done as an exercise in surrender.
We will also require a few other traits: Courage, integrity, honesty – along with our Self Care mantra: leaving our comfort zone is not easy: I should know Taurus Sun keeps me attached to my couch/lounge – in absolute safety and comfort. It also happens to be the place where I go to respond to the North Node offer of the unknown future.
So we dive in – and it is quite likely that with Chiron still in Aries we will still be subjected to personal pain via ongoing contact with our Wounded Self – but the level of joy in our lives will always be directly proportional to the level of sorrow – it’s one of those (confounded lol) Laws of how things work – like the Yin Yang. So Chiron always suggests ‘within your wound resides your gift’- so all these Starry shenaninigins point towards our Joy and Sorrow, our blessing within the curse and our willingness to be an Earth Child – open Hearts Open ears and open Mind. Stay in Love Emmett
PS – just to get as close as possible to the Spirit of the Times the zeitgeist – the mention of a ‘bitter pill’ had me thinking of the way we sometimes approach ‘affairs of the Heart’. The aforementioned lacking/missing Care makes us wary of being hurt should we decide to ‘drop our guard’. I think Kahlil Gibran – Seer/Poet says it best “Your Pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses our understanding“. And it is not only understanding that is revealed by contact with our Pain – our Chiron Wound. Our Pain also makes visible all the South Node events that have hurt us up till now. Small wonder we are reluctant of taking actions that bring the possibility of being hurt again. But in my own experience it is precisely this risk taking that gives us the chance: we have to somehow find a willingness to go towards this unknown if we want to be(come) more than all the limitations imposed by South Node trauma. I am left with no alternative – sure I can carry on by denying my feelings and I have used this approach in my past. Applying fey, bravado cavalier tactics can keep me safe but if I really want to experience a ‘Healing’ and to open myself to a potential North Node future I feel the only real approach is in line with Kahlil’s suggestion – ” to drink the potion (take the pill) as remedy in Silence and Tranquility”. As the New Moon draws ever closer I will sit and make my intentions clear and known.